Missed Free Book

I have a free book from Shutterfly, the code for which ends today at midnight PDT. I TRIED *SO* hard, but I can’t get it done in time. I picked out the book theme, and went and found a bunch of backgrounds to make it better for the subject I want: Big Sister book. It took days, but I’ve finally pulled together all the pictures of Aurora from various sources (except my newest cell phone, which is 1.5 years old), and gotten through all the pictures of the girls together (including pics from my newest cell phone) and have been narrowing the set down for the book. I just 15 minutes ago finished categorizing them into possible page groups. But now it’s my bedtime. Even if I stayed up ’til midnight, I don’t know if I could get it done, and I’d pay for staying up that late. I’ve made that bad decision enough in the last few weeks to know I don’t want to. (I’m trying to break myself of the bad-decision-to-stay-up-too-late-because-I’m-so-tired habit I’ve been in.) Maybe, _maybe_ if I ran up until the code expires at 3am… assuming that would be a good decision in order to get a free book from Shutterfly instead of another bad decision… and trying to fight my future tired and thus brain inept self to remember that I won’t be able to make everything perfect, ever color, every picture placement, every word… but then I’d be useless tomorrow. Highly likely unable to do more than minimal at work, and would have to go to bed right after the kids, which means losing a night’s worth of effort towards being ready for our trip this weekend.

*sigh* :( I guess I’ve already decided, it’s not worth the $20-some the free book costs. Though I do want to stay up to make it. But I don’t want to sabotage myself so close to having to drive alone with a 2 year old and a(n almost) seven year old to Massachusetts. Well, I’ve done a lot of the work. Here’s hoping somehow somewhere another free book code comes my way before either Amber’s birthday or in time for Christmas.

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I loathe Summer

Summer is awful. I despise Summer. I loathe Summer.

I’m glad so many of you are out there enjoying it. I truly am. Someone should, so it’s not just a waste of a season. But, I’m not one of you.

It’s too HOT. UGH. So yucky. Even when not sticky or unbreathably, oppressively humid. My body stops functioning at 85 degrees, it starts to shut down. I move so much slower, and all my body wants to do is sleep. SUCKY.

It’s too BRIGHT for TOO LONG. The freaking Sun is up 2 hours before I am, and I get up around 7am, and it stays up WAAAY to late at night. Last light around 10pm!? How does anyone get any decent length of sleep? Can’t even be up much for looking at the night sky, or feeling the cool-ish air on the not crappy nights.

It’s not just me, you know. Plants, even animals, suffer in Summer too. Grass goes brown and dormant. Flowers wilt, garden crops droop, even leaves turn brown and crisp. It gets ugly outside, as in literal ugliness to look at.

And on top of all that horribleness, everyone goes away in Summer. And I’m still here… Isolated… abandoned. It does make me want to cry sometimes.

It’s all just so draining. I loathe Summer. One long trudgery from the beauty and contentment of Spring to the glory and welcomed release of Autumn.

In case you haven’t figured it out yet, Summer is my seasonal depression time. If I haven’t been reaching out to you to hang out or chat or keeping up in my normal way, it’s NOT because I’m too busy. It’s because I don’t have the strength to try. Or because the daily struggle has temporarily removed you from my functional memory. Which only makes it all worse, because social interaction is one of the few things that truly re-energizes me.

And it’s only the middle of July. The worst of it is still to come. :(

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Not me…

Saw U of M tours being given today, and I was sad. Sad because it won’t be me (taking a tour of the University). :( At least, not this year, it seems.

Oddly enough, last night I had one of those at-college-but-still-working-my-job dreams. Only this time, for the first time in my waking life, the college stress dream was actually about college – well Grad school to be specific. Which I have started saying, but haven’t fully accepted as fact because I’m currently avoiding the whole issue: I think I’ve decided that I’m not applying for Med School this year for entrance in 2018. Which completely sucks, because it means I have to wait another two years, instead of just one. But, I can’t honestly expect to get into either of my Med Schools of choice with the bad MCAT overall score I got, nor can I realistically expect to be able to self-learn biochem and organic-chem in the evenings in 5 weeks, or even 8.

Anyway, the dream’s flavor was just arrived for the start of the school year (and not late after classes have already started, and not I can’t find every where I need to be / go, and not move in to where I’d be living fails for some reason). Surprisingly the stress dream part doesn’t start there. After three days -ish I realized finally that I probably should be leaving the dorm house at some point, and thus I figured both that I should call in to the school administration for my class schedule, and that I should tell my job that I was going to school. Here the stress dream part starts, but don’t remember hardly any of it now as of writing, and I think I woke up soon after anyway.

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:’(

When doctors or their forms ask if there’s any history of cancer in my family, I scoff and say “My family IS the history of cancer!”

Apparently that applies to those who marry in too. Second Uncle in 7 months to be diagnosed with stage 4. My favorite Uncle this time.

So I’ve been eating my sorrow and watching clips of Gal G as Wonder Woman this evening. Maybe I’ll sleep tomorrow.

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What Galileo Likely Saw – Moons Around Jupiter

I can not believe I haven’t shared this video of Jupiter being orbited by its 4 largest moons yet. I will do so now, as it’s extremely relevant to my planet viewing event next Friday!

The dramatic music really does add to it.

Juno Approach Movie of Jupiter and the Galilean Moons
“NASA’s Juno spacecraft captured a unique time-lapse movie of the Galilean satellites in motion about Jupiter. The movie begins on June 12th…” (2016)

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Outerspace is so interesting

I found out last night that Venus and Mars do not have magnetospheres. But Mercury does! WHAT?! Mercury doesn’t even have an atmosphere! (I knew this last one.)

However, Venus is still protected from solar wind because of its amazingly dense atmosphere! Crazy stuff!

Outerspace is so interesting.

Now I want to know the following for each planet (and dwarf planet). I forced myself to go to bed before I could do the research.
- How many Moons?
- How many Rings?
- Orbital plane inclination?
- Has an Atmosphere?
- Has a Magnetosphere?
- Is Layered / Has a Core?
- Larger or Smaller than Ganymede? (The largest moon in our solar system, one of Jupiter’s moons)
- Anything noteworthy about its Rotation?

Actually, to be factual:
- Venus does has an extremely weak magnetosphere, but it’s useless
- Mercury does kind of have an atmosphere, but it’s SO tiny, thin, and variable it’s just the exosphere part of an atmosphere. It doesn’t keep in heat, it doesn’t do much of anything that an atmosphere does.

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Solar System Explained From the Inside Out (Infographic)

From Space.com. This is fantastic. View the image, then scroll down.

https://www.space.com/10900-solar-system-planets-scale-infographic.html

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Astronaut Class of 2017

Congrats Astronaut Class of 2017!

5 women, 7 men. Decent ratio there! The last class was 50 / 50.

3 minorities out of 12. They did better than the last class (which was 1 out of 8, in 2013).

https://nasa.tumblr.com/post/161552645129/meet-americas-newastronauts

In case you missed it, we just announced the Astronaut Class of 2017! Our 12 new astronaut candidates were chosen from more than 18,300 applicants, more than double the previous record of 8,000 set in 1978. Get to know them: https://nasa.tumblr.com/…/16155…/meet-americas-newastronauts

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Blessed to Be Able to

On my way to take the MCATs 2 1/2 weeks go, I had a LOT of energy from anticipation. I was also excited: FINALLY! I am getting to move forward, to take a step forward, on this path towards becoming a doctor! But nervous energy or no, I needed to burn it off. So I turned on some music and sang and “danced” as I drove.

After I was settled, I started thinking about Maslow’s hierarchy of needs – one of the subjects I needed to know for the test – and I felt VERY thankful. All my needs are met: physical (food, shelter, clothing, etc), safety (relatively, being in Ann Arbor) and security (job, emergency fund, experience, etc), love and belonging (my children, family, friends, single Mom’s group, church), and even esteem. Not only are all my needs met, but I have the opportunity now for self-actualization, I was on my way to try and achieve more of my potential. I’m just SO BLESSED, and I was feeling it strongly that morning. Have to thank God, and all the support I’ve had in my life.

Thank You!

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More things I need to post about, 1

- My Cousin Oreese Reesie’s birthday party. It was SO great. I got to talk, really talk, with family. And we talked about so much interesting stuff, including outer space! One of the highlights for me was my other cousin Leslie’s (Reesie’s older sister) youngest son overhearing the talk about Ceres and joining in the conversation!! Another of the highlights was getting to go head to head in debate with Reesie, and actually being awake enough and not distracted by kids to have enough brain power to keep up with him! Twice! As in, on two different topics. The venue was beautiful, thanks to Tamara, Reesie’s wife, and everything went over so well. The next morning I felt so great, the feeling of happiness and joy from that evening carried me for quite a while. Thanks to all!

- This past Memorial Day weekend. It was really bad to start. See the post about Aurora’s tongue. But, Saturday evening was good. On Friday I started feeling sad that we weren’t going Up North camping this year for Mem Day. No one else was going, and I wasn’t going to drive all that way to try and manage my two girls and opening up the cottage all by myself! But, that might have been the wrong decision. I need Up North to recenter myself, my brain. To rejuvenate me and calm me. I know that being with my family is a big part of that. Camping Up North at the family lot, doing some of the traditional things, is also part of that. And without family, I didn’t think I was interested. But I was wrong. I really wanted to go. But it wasn’t feasible by this point, Friday. I had plans already for the weekend, and I did not have enough money to go. So, I decided on Friday, we would go camping out in the backyard, and borrow the neighbors’ fire pit so we could sing around a fire and make S’mores! It would have to be Saturday night, because Sunday was supposed to rain and storm. (Hence my push to have the camp out despite Aurora’s accident.) Then on Monday we had plans to go to the beach with Dad, Colette, and Joy. Saturday evening paid off, we all had fun! And waking up from camping with my girls was great too. Sunday was nice, with thanks to Courtney for coming over to hang out and helping me care for the hedges / bushes in my yard! That helped calm my mind. Then Monday at the state park in the Irish Hills was just what I needed to solidify the weekend. Being out in nature, with family, just relaxing and playing… it was the perfect end to the weekend. We got home and everything looked different, like we’d been away for a long weekend! I was so great to be able to recreate the Up North feelings and just get away and get an _actual_ vacation! Even it if was just an hour and a half on Saturday and four hours on Monday. So good. Especially after such a horrible start to the weekend.

- Mother’s Day. Which I can’t really remember now. It was the day after Reesie’s birthday party. And I remember we did not go to a Mother’s Day buffet like I always do every year. Because I couldn’t afford it this year with the other plans happening in the weeks all around it. I was sad about that, but in the end I had a happy Mother’s Day. I just wish I could remember why…. I remember I had wanted to post about it though! Maybe I already did?

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