Category Archives: Depression

The Trickiest Part

The trickiest part about fighting depression is being able to tell the difference between having fought tooth and nail to climb the sheer wall up towards the way out, stabbing a tentative handhold with each tooth and nail, pulling yourself … Continue reading

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A Decent Day Looks Like This

And then there are days like today. Woke up feeling pretty good. Did chores. Had a nice time with the girls. Got stuff done. Relaxed a little. My Uncle called to check on me. My BFSC called me. Got to … Continue reading

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BAD Evening, GOOD Morning

Yesterday evening was bad. Worse than I’ve been in months. I watching an episode about the main character realizing she’s addicted to pain pills, and at the end I thought how nice it could be if I had some happy … Continue reading

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Reply to the Minister

This was from the assistant minister at my church: “I just heard from James, he stops by often during the week, that you were upset with Bob for something and I wanted to check in with that. We pastors always … Continue reading

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Support Group – I Have a Question

Here’s what I sent to my grief support group email list: Hi Everyone, Question, if you’ve already been through it: How did you handle the anniversary of your parent’s death? Tomorrow is the anniversary of my Mom’s death. Today is … Continue reading

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So this is life

Two weeks ago (Aug 19 or 20): Things are really good. I mean, everything-going-my-way kind of good = great. My MCAT score is top notch, my med school app was verified early, I finished applying to U of M, I … Continue reading

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STRESS EATING.

STRESS EATING. Why? I don’t know. I literally have no idea what I’m stressed about.

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6 months

6 months since Mom died. (Calendar says yesterday evening. Orbit around the Sun says this morning.) Not a good day.

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I Didn’t Make It In Time

I finally dreamt about Mom last night. First time since she died. But instead of it being something normal or some nice memory, it was a nightmare about her dying. Went from trying to get her to a dentist via … Continue reading

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Call Me

When I was a kid, this is what parents give their children to make sure that the kids had a way to call them in an emergency! UPDATE: Actually, now I think I remember Mom got this for me when … Continue reading

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