As I Live and Learn
I've been collecting my writings from years gone by as I find them. Each time I move - now 5 times in the last 3 years - I find more scraps, loose sheets, etc. with my thoughts from various times in my life. I've decided to copy as many of them as I can here to try and keep from losing them again, and to share with the world.
Please feel free to comment as thoughts occur to you. Either send them to firstname.lastname@example.org or use the comment links here.
Thanks, and Enjoy!
Thursday, December 01, 2005
I have a good life.
Friends, some of which I'm going to see tomorrow night. I have friends here now, a good enough number I think. At least for now. I still have some friends here I want to work on making better friends, but I'm not worried. Nor am I unhappy, anymore.
Family. I have a Mom who is giving up long standing holiday traditions, big and quite arguably important ones both to her and me, just because I don't want to have to face my fear of flying again so soon... and I'm too embarrassed to let my brother see me in such a state, let alone be there for me. It's easier to lean on strangers when it comes to this crippling fear I've developed, than to let people who know me as something else see me like that.
But I'm off topic. :) I also have a good job. And so far this winter while I did get sick, again :p, it was only a semi-severe cold, unlike the all out knock down for a week nasty flus I've had the last couple years.
For whatever reason, I'm pretty happy right now. Could be 'cause I just watched three episodes of my current favorite show (Scrubs) and they were mostly fun. Could be because I might almost be over this cold, and you always feel better after you've felt weak or worn or been driven crazy by a running or stuffy nose or hacking cough (I only had the nose problems). Could be that I randomly hit a moment in my life where I stopped taking things for granted for a fleeting second, and am on a kick from that. It's not the first time. It'd better not be the last.
Love to all who... know.
Have I mentioned, nah, not important.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
It doesn't have to be New Years to make a resolution. In fact, I think if it's not, then you're more likely to succeed because you're making the resolution because you want to and not because you're supposed to.
Yesterday I made two resolutions:
1) To stop calling on God when I do not mean it. It's really starting to bother me. Years ago I managed to get rid of using the word like every few words when speaking, but it took time and effort. Now it's time to stop "using the Lord's name in vain". I'd appreciate help, as in if you hear me doing so please bring it to my attention. The more I'm aware of when I'm doing it, the easier it will be to stop.
2) To get back down to 175 pounds before my physical in December (which I believe is what I was last year at my physical). The only problem is that I just realized my physical is on Monday... :p Gonna be hard, but I can do it.