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Thursday, February 21, 2008

Please forgive me

I need to apologize, publicly, to Will.

I've said one (actually two) too many times that the reason I broke up with him is because he was moving too fast for me physically.

That really was the third reason on the list. I gave that reason to my mother, it was the best one for that conversation. But I haven't been able to own up to the real reason(s) in other conversations, except for the one with Emily (thankfully - meaning I'm not a total jerk). And maybe Lisa too? I had talked to him about that issue of mine, and he was trying to accommodate me. But I ended up in the "when is he gonna try... and what?" guarding mindset, which visiting him at his house and he only having his bed for us to sit on didn't help.

One of the two bigger reasons was I didn't feel we were connecting, which is a perfectly fine reason, except I had forgotten it. So I've been putting out there that my decision to break up with him was his fault, and it really wasn't at all. There was one brief moment, after the first date, when we connected, but then it was gone.

Anyway, Will, I'm sorry.

Please forgive me, all.


 

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