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Monday, August 21, 2006Too LateOnly 45 minutes. It took me that long to get back on the phone on his behalf. And I was already too late.(If you haven't already ready the previous post, go do that before continuing this one.) The decision to put him down was not only made, but was signed off on, and was in progress - if not already done. I was reminded that even if I decided to take KitKat, it wouldn't work. My schedule wouldn't allow for me to care for him. I'm not home enough. Probably not even for a healthy cat am I home enough. I'm frequently gone for weekends, and there are frequently days I'm only home long enough to sleep and maybe eat breakfast. Recently have been gone from home even more than that. But no matter that, I couldn't provide the care KitKat would need, everyday. It was also explained to me that I had misunderstood some about the biopsy. In order to even get one done correctly, would involve having to go deep into KitKat, possibly opening him up (?), because the growth was so far down. And that could potentially cost up to thousands. I hate the word humane. It's a word people use to make themselves or an act sound noble and nice, when it's completely not that. People also say it's better to die than to live constantly in pain or suffering. Not me. I would rather live in pain. I guess that puts me in a very small minority. So be it. But don't anyone ever pull the plug on me. That all said, I feel better now. I think it's because the decision was made, and I couldn't stop it. And I tried. Somewhat like last time. Now I move on, saddened by the loss, wishing things could have been different, but able to think it wasn't my fault and go on okay. Thank You, Burdened One. Well, we have calls to make. Comments
trekker9er said:
Interesting that the only person to reply to any of these was Erin, who even called me to say she was sorry. Or is it? Though of the people who read these, I know Kim isn't one, Sara's in the last week of wedding preparations, and Kevin was part of it all. But aren't there others out there?
Em said:
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Sorry Jennifer, I haven't been able to get online that much lately, AOL has been a pain. I'm sorry you went through so much trouble, and the cat couldn't be saved. *hugs* |
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