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Sunday, March 12, 2006

What have I done?

Sunday, March 12th, 2006, about 9pm

Pieces of my heart
Lay shattered before me
What have I done?
What have I done...

I've not cried like this for a long while now.
I've not cried so hard
Hurt so deep
It's hard to stop
What have I done?
What have I done...

I didn't realize
I miss her so
I love her so
I need her close
What have I done?
What have I done...

I'm so far away now
Her life is there
Would she come for me?
Am I that selfish?
Yes, of course I am
What have I done?
What have I done...

I've condemned my children yet to come
I've taken away a part of myself
I did it all without seeing
I did it without realizing

And now it's too hard

I won't go back
My life is here now
She won't come here
Her life it there
Has been for longer than I
It's unfair for me to take her away
Not right

My soul hurts
What have I done?
What have I done...

I only just found it
A hole in my chest
One of the deepest pains I've ever felt

It's been there
Obviously
I just didn't pay attention
On purpose
I pushed it away
Locked it tight
Out of sight
Out of mind
What have I done?
What have I done...

Now it's too late
My Mom lives there
I live here
And it's too far

I left her

What have I done?
What have I done...


 

Comments

vosch_karanek said:
*hugs the angel* I felt those exact sentiments not but a lil over 1 week ago today... but remember that as long as you keep her in your heart... Mom is never that far away. What have you done? You have made mom proud... *hugs*
 

Emily said:
*Hugs the Jennifer*
I know how it is, and my mother's less than a half hour away. I know it's harder for you, being so far. It will be okay. *HUGS and Love*
Emily
 

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