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She slept 7 hours! Then ate, played a small bit, and went back to sleep for a couple more hours! It seems the combination of baby oragel during the day, and baby tylenol if she wakes up with pain at night, works to manage the teething!

I got to bed waaay too late, 'cause I want to finish up the loose ends of work I had done during the day. I missed Summer Solstice, because I set my alarm but then forgot to turn it on. I kept waking up with a runny nose, and being warm - over and over and over. Grr. *sigh* The baby slept so well, and I didn't get to enjoy it.

Yesterday, I forgot to say, after getting baby oragel she was quite content to gum on her hand. Which she kept up today. That hand mouth coordination is getting better. Once she's gotten it down with the grabbing of an object she'll be all set, heh.

ARRGH! Working and the baby do not mix well. Not that it's helped work has been demanding immediate responses today every other time I turn around.

That baby's happy enough looking around and cooing for a while, but she definitely wants to be held LOTs. It was easier yesterday and the day before, I expect because I didn't have to focus on much but her, and could carry her around to do some house hold tasks.

Glad I have care for her lined up for Wednesday. Hopefully I can get some for Thursday too. Friday will just have to be happy without me working much.

Ooo, I am beginning to be able to feel her hands/fingers on my arm even when she's not there. Aww... oh no... I'm going to miss her so much!

Baby's first ritual! Not sure I'll tell her parents that. It was a potluck as well, which they know she went to 'cause they called on a three way call to check up on us. She was good during the actual ritual stuff, after the circle was cast and everything/one called, because she was watching each person doing their thing. But otherwise she was usually fussy - unusual for her. And she was VERY clingy. The only time she allowed any of the others to hold her was when I had to use the bathroom. She did seem to like Meaghan, smiled at her lots. But the other two she was wary of about 3/4 of the time. And she fused and straight out cried much of the time we were there when I wasn't holding her (and she wasn't sleeping). The consensus seems to be she's having abandonment issues 'cause she hasn't seen Mom or Dad since Friday and I am the caretaker now, added to that that it was a completely new location to her. She may have been afraid I was going to leave her too. I don't much think she liked it in that place either, except for the water fountains which she found interesting (though that may be because I've been playing water sounds for her every night to sooth her to sleep and the one fountain sounded the same).

It was interesting to note that I have a huge amount of patience with a baby's crying and such in comparison to the amount of patience I have in playing with a baby/child.

And yet, when we got back home at night, all I wanted to do was hold her and hold her, and play with her. I promised I would play with her (hopefully a good deal) before taking her to the Step family tomorrow.

I'm getting very attached to her. I can even say I love her. Three more days is going to be too long, they need to come get her in the morning if I'm going to be able to give her up easily.

Feelings:
- Help me, I'm falling in love... and they're going to come take her away, er, back. *sigh, cry*
- Despite the aggravation at times, it's totally worth it, more than even.
- If I ask, do you think her parents will let me be her godmother?