As I Live and LearnBack   to   My   Universe

        So far away. Far away from everything. From the children, from civilization, from you.
        How did this happen? I thought it would be alright. I could go, not for long, just briefly, to do something different elsewhere. Then I would come back, so soon you would barely miss me.
        Do you remember how is was? You could always come to me. If something was wrong you would turn to me and I would be there. You could talk with me about anything, I would always listen. I loved to hear you talk, and you wanted to hear me. You looked all over for me and when you found me you happily listened. And in the background we could hear the children. Laughing, playing, sleeping, singing, they were never afraid. I loved them. And they loved me, not like you loved me. Thier's was an innocent, trusting, childish love. Your love was more subtle but understood.
        You know I loved you, right? Do you know I still love you and never forget you? I miss hearing you. I miss the children't laughter. I miss being near you, being there for you.
        Have you forgotten me? I was sure you were ready. You relied on me for so long, I taught you so much. It was time to let you stand on your own. So I left, and when I tried to return I couldn't. I am farther away than I meant to be.
        How did I let this happen? No, I didn't let this happen. If I had have known I never would have left. Now I'm alone. You have abandoned me. I try to speak to you, to tell you I'm coming back, but you don't listen, you don't hear.
        So now I can only look on, from a distance, and it breaks my heart. So soon after I left you turned to me and I wasn't there. You weren't ready. You had forgotten my teachings. You didn't know what to do. You needed me. Now you blame me. You couldn't wait for me. You did as you pleased, and when you saw it was wrong you blamed me for not stopping you. I couldn't. I wasn't here. Now the children cry and scream too much. They are afraid and you will not comfort them. They come to you and you overprotect the youngest so they're unprepared for the world you've created. You ignore the older children and they turn to each other but they're inexperienced.